Well the past week hasn't been easy but then who said anything about life been easy.
Last monday [3rd september 2007] i became a student at Hull College. The first week flew by really, well bits went slow because it was the induction week but this weeks been good.
Its been really hard though i have really really really really missed my dad like so much words can't describe. Last weekend i was supposed to be spending the weekend on my own but because i'm a wimp i only managed thursday night, how i managed to get to sleep when i was scared at being along is beyond me but i did and i managed to get up for college too. Last friday was good but i revealed a part of my past to a new friend and i like this new friend, felt i could trust her and was pleased to have found a new friend but i didn't want to tell her anything its not something i like to do because its not that what matters anymore its my life and i don't want my past involved.
This week though on a better note has been better, though tuesday wasn't a good day, my homesickness was worse than ever, i was just missing my dad soo much but he came to see me to make sure i was ok. I can deal with spending weekends apart from him, and i can cope with not seeing him for 3 weeks at a time but not knowing when i'm going to see him again is painful though that wasn't really what made it so bad on tuesday. You see unlike many teenagers i know they don't get on with their parents/parent the way i do and so i find it very difficult because he means the world. See my Dad isn't just my dad he's my best friend, i could go to him in any position; upset, hurt, angry, scared and in trouble and he'd still be there and thats why i love him, see it took a bad thing in my life to make me realise how much i love the people i call my family and i would do anything for them.
So life as a student...... is wondeful. Okay it involves getting off my lazy arse and working but i know its worth it. The only thing i fully hate is my maths resit [ yeah i was mad enough to resit it, not because i want to, not because i like it because i want more options when i come to pick my universitys.] All i need now to fit into my wonderful little life is a man..... someone to kiss in the rain with, someone to confide in and someone to have fun with. But if i don't get a boyfriend then fine i'll throw myself into work and then get my A's and B's either way i will but i can do more work if i don't have any of that. I'm off now though as i am rather tired.