Okay so when i was little i thought everything was perfect. I thought that those big men with flash cars just woke up one day and woke up with a big mercedes in their drive and the keys hung perfectly on the key chain. I thought those that seemed happily in love were happily in love but what we see is what we get and what we don't get is a whole new story. I thought that families stayed together; the 2 children and the 2 parents. I thought that those people who had big houses just woke up one morning and owned them. I thought those people who got good grades were just the "lucky" ones.  If someone had told me that at 16 i'd have gone through all what i have i'd have just laughed in their face.
Life isn't down to luck, where does luck come into it i ask myself, and still i never have found an answer.
I got my good grades for GCSES..... why? because i worked, i worked until my eyes couldn't keep up right, i worked until i was so exhausted all i could do was cry and lastily i tried the best i ever have. As a child everything seems so simple; you fall in love with a man, you get married to him, you buy a nice big house, you have 2 children, you get a pet dog, you go on nice luxury holidays, the children grow up and then you have this peaceful time with just you and your husband. So simple, so lovely, so nice eh. As a child i imagined that of my life, i imagined coming home at 16 and having them silly arguments with my mum about my choice of clothes or music...... i've never had any of that.
Everything we get out of life is because of  what it means to us = the more something means to us the more we get out because we're willing to put more in, call it an investment.
When i was 9 all my dreams and simplicity of life just went, i developed a very strong view, adult mind and gone were them dreams of having a nice big house and one day getting married because in reality all that doesn't happen, though i'd love it to.
I've learnt the past few weeks that really i could do anything with my life, i have the power to be who i want to be and if i want to do something i WILL do it. I'm determinded and a proud person and i'm proud of that.
Anyway thats the last of my erm....... dreamy/silly talk.